Hey, whats up? its ya boy, Mike robbins! lol

[mikeyank]

Thanks Mike for our reply....I grew up in a time when having homosexual feelings (there was no "gay") were a problem to be corrected and I very much wanted to have a family, etc. so I woreked at not being homosexual....I was in a seminary (protestant) when I revealed my "homosexual problem" and since it was a progressive seminary, they didn't kick me out, they just tried to help me get over the problem. So I tried real hard to supress gay feelings....eventually got married (though there wasn't a lot of hot passion) and did have children....but finally, after 15 years and a terrific therapist I realized I wanted passion and it would have to be with a man...my children were o.k. with it; they were never a problem. About a year after I was divorced, I met a guy (at the baths) from Georgia and we fell in love and spent five wonderful years together...his death was a terrible shock....looking back I can see that I was gay from the beginning - I was never very passionate about girls - and if I lived in todays world I probably would never have married. On the other hand, my kids are great so in the end I regret nothing.

Manly men are great kissers - that I know. I hope you get to the point where you can enjoy it...you probably are the archtype for the 21st century man - sexual in all its meanings and able to find enjoyment whenever the opportunity arises and with whomever you happen to be attracted to. It is a new day for bisexuality.

Thanks for your :first time: story - it was hot....

Thank you so much Silvercamel, for sharing your story with us. One of the great things about this forum, is that we get to meet so many different people, of all ages, backgrounds, and nationalities, all with different sexual and loving experiences, (sometimes even unrequited).

Your story is so typical of a gay guy trying so hard to change, and wasting so much time, trying to change something that is a basic part of who we are. It is unfortunate that we did not grow up in a more enlightened time. I am so happy for you that you are at peace with who you are, and you look at all the wonderful things that you have experienced so far, including raising your kids.

And thank you Mike, for asking this question. We can all learn quite a bit from our brother's here.

 

[jwglass]

i went to an ex-gay ministry meeting once...it was horrible! it was a catholic service that i found online in high school. i only went to one meeting because while everyone was talking i just looked at everyone and realized that nobody there had any fashion sense at all, but most of all i felt sorry for them. then i went off to college and got my fairy wings! for now i am proud to say, im here, im queer, accept me for who i am, and you can buy me a beer!

preston was a cutie. i dont recall seeing his first shoot, ill have to go back and look for it, but he did have such a sweet face.

i agree that we all need to take the time to learn from each other. too often today the gay community passes up some great members and focuses on looks and status. call my cynical but i believe thats part of the reason we dont have rights yet, because we cant treat eachother like equals, so how do we expect the rest of the world to? its a part of accepting who we are on the inside. the reason we stay in the closet isnt entirely because of straight society. sometimes it has a lot to do with the rest of the gay community.

 

[silvercamel]

did they freak out when u first saw them? how did u initiate the sucking? just walked up and whipped out ur dick? lol

Yes they did freak out...they were older guys and afraid I would "tell." Thye were physically more mature than I was...I was the kind of kid who got a big dick early, but not a lot of hair....So I was pretty scared, but said I wanted to get in on this and they said o.k. One of them told me to lie down on a bale of hay and take out my cock...I was so excited that I could hardly get my hard cock out of my pants...and then when I did, I immediately came - which was embarrasing for me but apparently pretty hot for them. Then they asked if I had ever sucked dick and I said no, so they said they would teach me...one of the guys (he was a blond boy with curly pubic hair) kind of waved his cock in front of me....when I surprised them, they all kind of hide their erections and got limp....but when he walked over to me his cock got harder and harder and I was kind of scared of it. But I did what they said and took it in my mouth...what was so hot was the way the guy reacted - he kind of groaned and arched his back and in about thirty seconds he came in my mouth...that was quite an initiation! I'v written enough (it's making me hot thinking of them and telling it to you! there's more but I'll wait for another time.

 

[jwglass]

thank you tampa for believing me to be not trashy, that is definately what i just posted above! you accept others in our community despite looks or status and that makes you a wonderful person. too many times have i gotten stared at in the gay clubs for being so large, i might be 400lbs short and fat, but that just makes me more to love! thats part of why i do drag, because i have just as much personality as i am big and its a perfect way for me to let that out. Sue is a big bitch, with great tits and a crazy ass smile. sorry im kinda rambling at this point, im not quite sure if i stated my message clearly, but the point of this was to thank you tampa for looking past my brash attitude and loving me for me. im not religious, but i am a child of a higher power, be it god or something else, and i love myself for what i am, not who i know, how i look or what i have

 

[jwglass]

so anyhow, on a lighter note, mike we have established that we live for adult swim. do you watch any of the anime on saturday nights?

 

[briva2ca169]

We need to see Mike, Mike, & Jordan...now that I'm sure would be worth watching...

 

[qwerty30]

LOL i was thinking if you do hook up with Ashton sometime..please tell him to get a real tatoo artist..his are kinda weird and immature looking..anyhow.

i didn't ask to join in because they were both gay..so that wasn't happening..and i have nothing to whip out when i'm excited so i can hide it well. i did tell my friend later on that i thought it was hot. he just looked at me weird and said i was a perv. that was the end of that.

and yeah im going with a group of friends to see alice in wonderland..who u think my avatar is? yes it's the mad hatter.

and the positions i would try would be any that he can handle. i'm not much of a freak but i might let my freak flag fly that night..

ok then i'm done. hope you have a great day bye.

 

[kodaaaa]

We need to see Mike, Mike, & Jordan...now that I'm sure would be worth watching...

yeah it would

 

[broke-mikerobbins]

Thanks Mike for our reply....I grew up in a time when having homosexual feelings (there was no "gay") were a problem to be corrected and I very much wanted to have a family, etc. so I woreked at not being homosexual....I was in a seminary (protestant) when I revealed my "homosexual problem" and since it was a progressive seminary, they didn't kick me out, they just tried to help me get over the problem. So I tried real hard to supress gay feelings....eventually got married (though there wasn't a lot of hot passion) and did have children....but finally, after 15 years and a terrific therapist I realized I wanted passion and it would have to be with a man...my children were o.k. with it; they were never a problem. About a year after I was divorced, I met a guy (at the baths) from Georgia and we fell in love and spent five wonderful years together...his death was a terrible shock....looking back I can see that I was gay from the beginning - I was never very passionate about girls - and if I lived in todays world I probably would never have married. On the other hand, my kids are great so in the end I regret nothing.

Manly men are great kissers - that I know. I hope you get to the point where you can enjoy it...you probably are the archtype for the 21st century man - sexual in all its meanings and able to find enjoyment whenever the opportunity arises and with whomever you happen to be attracted to. It is a new day for bisexuality.

Thanks for your :first time: story - it was hot....

Hey Silver,
No problem! its good to here everything worked out well!

maybe i will! lol never know

i see 2 types of bi, gay bi and straight bi... most lean on one side harder than the other.. i consider myself straight bi i suppose lol theres that label again haha

Mike

 

[broke-mikerobbins]

Tank Shane, who has a similar body type and cock type as you. You are both among my all time favorites on the site. And I'm so sorry to hear that Jordan is no longer on the site. But I hope you stick around here for a while.

David has told us that models have a "shelf life" here. I think that you still have so much potential, and hopefully you can become a Tyler type, who remains here for your fans to watch for a long time to come.

ahh yeah i would like to work with im, ive heard great things!

I hope to be around for a while, so there will be plenty more of mike to come haha

 

[broke-mikerobbins]

yeah, im not all that upset about it. i was at the time i decided it was over between us, i got a bottle of cheap tequilla and delt with my problems that way. now i am celebit and just keeping an open mind. i have feelings for this one guy, but all he wants is sex, not to mention he is married with a kid my age and an elementry teacher who could lose his job if anyone finds out....oh well. someday i will find love, but as rupaul says, if i cant love myself how the hell am i supposed to love someone else. so thats what im doing, loving and accepting myself and i will find love when i find it.

who woulda thought trashy me would be a hopeless romanitic? HAH!

ah, well, i know how that can be sometimes! i have a collection of jose bottles at my house lol

maybe it'll work out for the best! good thoughts only

 

[broke-mikerobbins]

Hey Mike,

That's a brilliant idea! And we'd love to know which model or person you would feel so possibly intimate with, that you might find yourself kissing with passion.

And I LOVE your coy admission that you could go way off the deep end gay for Johnny Depp. LMAO I think it's great that you can see sexual attractiveness beyond your own young age group. There are hot guys out there of all ages. Even though this is a bit of a "twink" site that doesn't mean that all of our preferences run strictly to the 18-22 range. Guys older than 25 are definitely sexy.

If you were 35 or older Mike I would still find you totally doable. BTW I'm in my mid 40's.

Looking at the world through the prism of your newfound bisexual awareness...who else as far as male celebrities or figures in public life do you now find very attractive? Beyond Johnny Depp. Or is it even a boyhood friend next door who you now realize is pretty cute? lol

Hey tampa,

wellll.... lol... probably the 2 i mentioned before... either drew or zakk id like the best haha..
ahhh mr depp lmao
brad pitt... from fight club lol
honestly.. if i were to end up being full blown gay... i would rather be with someone a lil older than myself, than someone my age... most guys my age are rather childish and annoying.. cant stand some most..

Mike

 

[broke-mikerobbins]

Mike, I'm so glad to hear that you and Jordan are still friends. In general terms without giving up any privileged information, how is he doing? Will you please pass onto him that MANY of us in hear still ask about him and we most sincerely hope he is well and happy.

I remember his first scene when he came in and did a solo in David's office. You never saw someone so thrilled and relieved to get $200. It was like he had won the lottery. I really got the sense that such a wonderful young man like him was really getting his ass kicked by life right at that moment. (And from my starving college student days I know what that's like.) I hope he's in a more stable living and financial situation now. I really wondered if he was close to the point of homelessness when we met him.

Please tell him that we send our warmest regards for his wellbeing and happiness. Now and in the future. Will you? Pleez...?

And of course all of that affection applies to you as well our dear Mike.

Jordan says hello, he is doing great, and sorry things didnt work out but he cant do it anymore.. kinda stopped n looked n said damn, what was i doin... that aint me. but other than that he is doing great.. things are lookin up for him and i think he'll be great once he gets done with school.

 

[broke-mikerobbins]

Mike,

Yeah, I did have a friend in my early teens. We went to his house everyday after school...no one home, and we messed around. After high school, I went to college and he moved to CA. I played the societal correct role while he dove right into San Francisco gay life....regretfully he contracted AIDS and died.

I really admire you and some of the other Broke Straight Boys models who know what they like and are in control of their sexual feelings and activities.

As for te weather, we are scheduled for more snow this week, but you can feel spring coming.

How often do you visit Florida, and do you have a model or models that you want to work with next?

thats so sad to hear... im sorry mike.

hating the snow so bad right now! grrr lol cant wait for warm weather!

eh idk whenever i can lol i love it there... umm prolly any of the popular ones... zakk i would like to work with haha tyler maybe.. couple otheres

 

[broke-mikerobbins]

i went to an ex-gay ministry meeting once...it was horrible! it was a catholic service that i found online in high school. i only went to one meeting because while everyone was talking i just looked at everyone and realized that nobody there had any fashion sense at all, but most of all i felt sorry for them. then i went off to college and got my fairy wings! for now i am proud to say, im here, im queer, accept me for who i am, and you can buy me a beer!

preston was a cutie. i dont recall seeing his first shoot, ill have to go back and look for it, but he did have such a sweet face.

i agree that we all need to take the time to learn from each other. too often today the gay community passes up some great members and focuses on looks and status. call my cynical but i believe thats part of the reason we dont have rights yet, because we cant treat eachother like equals, so how do we expect the rest of the world to? its a part of accepting who we are on the inside. the reason we stay in the closet isnt entirely because of straight society. sometimes it has a lot to do with the rest of the gay community.

glad u learned your you and no one can change that, not even yourself!

i always say judge by who they are not what they do. if a person is genuine, thats good enough for me!

 

[broke-mikerobbins]

Yes they did freak out...they were older guys and afraid I would "tell." Thye were physically more mature than I was...I was the kind of kid who got a big dick early, but not a lot of hair....So I was pretty scared, but said I wanted to get in on this and they said o.k. One of them told me to lie down on a bale of hay and take out my cock...I was so excited that I could hardly get my hard cock out of my pants...and then when I did, I immediately came - which was embarrasing for me but apparently pretty hot for them. Then they asked if I had ever sucked dick and I said no, so they said they would teach me...one of the guys (he was a blond boy with curly pubic hair) kind of waved his cock in front of me....when I surprised them, they all kind of hide their erections and got limp....but when he walked over to me his cock got harder and harder and I was kind of scared of it. But I did what they said and took it in my mouth...what was so hot was the way the guy reacted - he kind of groaned and arched his back and in about thirty seconds he came in my mouth...that was quite an initiation! I'v written enough (it's making me hot thinking of them and telling it to you! there's more but I'll wait for another time.

cock totally got hard!!! lol

 

[broke-mikerobbins]

so anyhow, on a lighter note, mike we have established that we live for adult swim. do you watch any of the anime on saturday nights?

damn straight! i love drawing my own anime characters, kinda have a passion for it! always wanted to be a cartoonist.. ill have to post some of my drawing up sometime!

 

[broke-mikerobbins]

LOL i was thinking if you do hook up with Ashton sometime..please tell him to get a real tatoo artist..his are kinda weird and immature looking..anyhow.

i didn't ask to join in because they were both gay..so that wasn't happening..and i have nothing to whip out when i'm excited so i can hide it well. i did tell my friend later on that i thought it was hot. he just looked at me weird and said i was a perv. that was the end of that.

and yeah im going with a group of friends to see alice in wonderland..who u think my avatar is? yes it's the mad hatter.

and the positions i would try would be any that he can handle. i'm not much of a freak but i might let my freak flag fly that night..

ok then i'm done. hope you have a great day bye.

aww lol poor guy haha maybe he was like me and had an aspiring tattoo artist practicing on him lol mine have come along tho... been getting them refinished... the tribal on my arm is finally colored to where i want it to be..

ahh lol they shoulda been nice and invited u.. i would have lol! nnn definitely not a perv.. guys like to see 2 girls kiss so whats wrong with 2 guys for a girl? what bout that strap on? lol!!

Im tempted to want to find out bout that freak flag lol dunno if i could handle it tho!

u have a great day also!

 

[broke-mikerobbins]

ahhh so after one of the loongest weekends of my life... i finally get to chill n relax. no more advice for the wicked lol

fifth of captain saturday = wicked bad shits sunday lmao

HOPE YOU ALL HAD A BETTER WEEKEND THAN I DID!!

mike

 

[parisnoyd]

cock totally got hard!!! lol

LOL, Mike! Worked for me, too!

Thanks, silvercamel! You reminded me of a time years ago. My father had a semi load of hay brought in for our horses. I don't remember how he got them, but he hired 2 boys to help me stack the hay in the barn. Straight guys. One was my classmate. I'd seen him naked in the locker room. The other was a hot blonde from my youngest sister's class. Typical jocks. Baseball, football, etc. It was hot so they took off their shirts. I finally couldn't take it anymore, so told them I was going to get them refreshments. It took me longer than it should have, but I was much calmer when I returned. Didn't last long. By this time, they were sweaty AND covered with hay. I did end up fucking the hot blondes beautiful ex-wife years later, but that's another story. My classmate's little brother got naked at the house my guy and I were living in a few years after. He was really cute, but scared off the girls we were partying with. Sigh.... He was too drunk to get it up. That family was blessed with the bods and cocks though....... Faces, too!