RIP Mike Robbins

[firemedic]

To Firemedic et al: One awesome group of people who never get enough credit are the ones we refer to as "First Responders". Whether they are nurses, medics, firemen or police or any combination, they put their lives on the line for the rest of us. Personally, I am feeling very grateful for their gift of self. I realize this thread is about Mike R, and it occurred to me that I hope he had them there to comfort him if needed, or to comfort those around him. You guys and gals are the world to us in our time of need, stay safe out there, ok?

Thank you so much Mark, those are truly warms thoughts and kind words that are much appreciated. I have to believe in my heart that professional & caring care was rendered to him regardless of cause.

 

[Bartly9]

Pastol,

You hit it right on the head, along with what David said. This isn't reality. There is a world outside that everyone needs to live, day in and day out. What "Mike" did online was real, but the fact is it's a job like any other. He got paid to have sex with other guys. I work for a university. Does that define who I am? No. The same goes for "Mike". I put his name in quotes here because this likely isn't his real name. David put it best when saying that his family probably doesn't want to hear from folks who gush about his porn abilities. Leave them alone and hopefully, go about your daily business. I think it's probably a good bet that this doesn't consume anyone's life. If it does, that's kind of scary.

You know, without Broke Straight Boys actually telling us what happened to sweet Michael, our imaginations may be assuming the worst. And actually, if his passing had been though natural causes, we probably would have been told. So I'm thinking that his end was indeed unheroic, and that is sad too. Sadness all around.

 

[sass1420]

I know a lot of people have asked what happened to Mike, etc. I am sure some have good intentions, I mean, depending on what caused his death, to make a donation. For instance if he got hit by a drunk driver, to donate to MADD. So maybe as an answer you could give us info on a charity for him

 

[zyl84]

Pick a charity, any charity. Make it in his honor. Same concept, no prying into this boys life more than necessary. Some people on here will just NEVER get it.

Speaking from the other side of death, you don't want to know what happened to him. In fact, in most deaths where "not much is known" you really don't want to know. Cause of death in these "not much is known" cases are vague and not very helpful. I'm not saying I know anything of Mike's death. I'm not saying his death was tragic. Do not read more into what I'm saying other than this: stop prying, mourn his death and move on.

 

[jwglass]

Pick a charity, any charity. Make it in his honor. Same concept, no prying into this boys life more than necessary. Some people on here will just NEVER get it.

Speaking from the other side of death, you don't want to know what happened to him. In fact, in most deaths where "not much is known" you really don't want to know. Cause of death in these "not much is known" cases are vague and not very helpful. I'm not saying I know anything of Mike's death. I'm not saying his death was tragic. Do not read more into what I'm saying other than this: stop prying, mourn his death and move on.

thank z

 

[samm4545]

This is all so very sad. First the media subjects us to Dustin's passing live on T.V. now Mike. May God bless him and his family. If it can be shared, will someone elaborate on how he passed?

 

[samm4545]

For the record, and with all due respect, asking what befell a person, is hardly prying. There is no one here asking his real name or the whereabouts of his family or anything. As with all things, information is on the web, but everyone here always talks of "Family," something like that is what you share with family, so they can move past grief, sadness, etc...

 

[slimvintage]

For the record, and with all due respect, asking what befell a person, is hardly prying. There is no one here asking his real name or the whereabouts of his family or anything. As with all things, information is on the web, but everyone here always talks of "Family," something like that is what you share with family, so they can move past grief, sadness, etc...

You've obviously read the whole thread. I don't think the rank and file among the members will ever know from asking on the forum how MikeR died. No one knows enough to be able to say anything with any kind of authority, so we're all trying to leave the subject alone since it's caused bad feeling. But I agree with you: it's an atavistic, quasi-instinctual reaction to the death of someone you know, love or are just familiar with, to ask how it happened. Nothing anyone should have to feel tacky or crass about.

 

[jwglass]

 

[zyl84]

You've obviously read the whole thread. I don't think the rank and file among the members will ever know from asking on the forum how MikeR died. No one knows enough to be able to say anything with any kind of authority, so we're all trying to leave the subject alone since it's caused bad feeling. But I agree with you: it's an atavistic, quasi-instinctual reaction to the death of someone you know, love or are just familiar with, to ask how it happened. Nothing anyone should have to feel tacky or crass about.

your bolded comment just won my whole argument for this thread. you do not know him, you do not love him nor are you familiar with him. you know a character on a screen. the end.

his passing is tragic. you do not need to know more than the fact that he's passed. i can throw big words in here too, if you think it will push my point across better.

 

[jwglass]

im also pretty sure this thread was supposed to be somewhere we could remember the good things about Mike...but i guess nobody can ever leave well enough alone.

 

[slimvintage]

Totally agree Joe. The put downs should have stopped weeks ago. This thread, to me, is as much for MikeR's fans to step up and add their grief and sadness to the list of forumite tributes, as for us quietly to share our sorrow, respect and concern, and to ponder the reasons why a beautiful life ended so early. Certainly not to berate each other for the specific way in which each of us does that. It's almost as if we've somehow managed to create grief factions, that there are different visions as to what the correct way to show sorrow is. Everyone who's posted here was familiar with MikeR and his openness and humor, generosity, concern and affection for his friends and fans on the forum. Some of us had been in contact with him by e-mail, and others in person, others exchanged messages here on the forum. We were united by being the fans of a charismatic porn actor who suddenly came among us and turned himself into a Friend.

This thread may not wind down for some time. New people will be turning up here sad, concerned and questioning. The real boy himself was obviously a loving, tolerant person. In memory of that person we should at least try to cut each other a little slack in regard to the ways we find to mourn his death.

 

[mikeyank]

I certainly agree with Slim. I was a big a fan as Mike had, and spent hours defending him from his detractor's on the forum. I was always totally captivated by each of his performance's before David's camera. Yes, the porn scenes may have been repetitive, but just to see his smile, and hear his word's exchanged with David and his fellow model's were always a joy for me.

No, we did not know the real person who played the role of Mike Robbins, but I genuinely feel that with his dozens of appearances on the futon, and his many post's on the forum, it would have taken a great actor, or perhaps a schizophrenic person to be someone completely different from the person I watched, admired, and exchanged messages with.

And Slim is also correct that we all mourn in our own way, and I totally respect each and every post on this tribute thread, as it is all spoken with love and reverence for this vital, vibrant young man who charmed as well as turned on myself, and his many, many fans here.

If to some folks, the cause of his death is relevant for their mourning, so be it. Let them express their grief with those questions. It is a disservice to Mike's memory for us to snipe and bitch at one another, if we have a different way to express our grief.

We are all different, but we are all God's children, and it is all good. I hope all of Mike's fans and admirers can feel free to pay tribute to him on this thread in any way that comforts them. It is all good, if it comes from the right place in our hearts.

 

[aladinsane73]

aladinsane73

where do I begin, first of all my heart is broken, I am new to this site, but became very familiar with mikes work. I had just come back to BSBs a couple of weeks ago, and even when I was a former member it never interested me to join any of the forums, until this last week, then with interest peaked I registered with the chat rooms, and when I scrolled down the topics I noticed a RIP to a Robbins, and in my mind I thought of someone else from another site, then as I began to read tears began to run down my cheeks. Shock hit me like a bucket of ice water in the face, the first words I uttered were "WHY", "HOW", and "WHAT HAPPENED"? The pain and grief I feel for this wonderful young man are to much for words. I have not slept since finding out about mike, I feel like I was told about a dear friends death, but then the messenger just turned their back on me and walked away without telling me how this terrible tragedy happened, and now when I see mikes face on the homepage the wound is still fresh, there is no closure, I'm only left with the question of "WHY"? What do I do now? mikes face reminds me of a senseless tragedy, and of the painful grief that I feel for him and his family. and all his close friends here at BSBs. what they must be going through, I cannot imagine. I can only hope to one day know the answer of "WHY", "HOW", and "WHAT HAPPENED"? Until then, my heart breaks for his loved ones, and I pray they find peace and healing in the midst of this nightmare. You just don't move on from something like this, time slows down, these wounds heal slowly, may God be with all mikes family and good friends, I know in my heart mikes last thoughts were of all of you, his friends.

 

[slimvintage]

where do I begin, first of all my heart is broken, I am new to this site, but became very familiar with mikes work. I had just come back to BSBs a couple of weeks ago, and even when I was a former member it never interested me to join any of the forums, until this last week, then with interest peaked I registered with the chat rooms, and when I scrolled down the topics I noticed a RIP to a Robbins, and in my mind I thought of someone else from another site, then as I began to read tears began to run down my cheeks. Shock hit me like a bucket of ice water in the face, the first words I uttered were "WHY", "HOW", and "WHAT HAPPENED"? The pain and grief I feel for this wonderful young man are to much for words. I have not slept since finding out about mike, I feel like I was told about a dear friends death, but then the messenger just turned their back on me and walked away without telling me how this terrible tragedy happened, and now when I see mikes face on the homepage the wound is still fresh, there is no closure, I'm only left with the question of "WHY"? What do I do now? mikes face reminds me of a senseless tragedy, and of the painful grief that I feel for him and his family. and all his close friends here at BSBs. what they must be going through, I cannot imagine. I can only hope to one day know the answer of "WHY", "HOW", and "WHAT HAPPENED"? Until then, my heart breaks for his loved ones, and I pray they find peace and healing in the midst of this nightmare. You just don't move on from something like this, time slows down, these wounds heal slowly, may God be with all mikes family and good friends, I know in my heart mikes last thoughts were of all of you, his friends.

Welcome to the forum man. Post on the 10 Random Things thread if you'd like us to know more about you.

 

[aladinsane73]

goodbye MikeR and Andrew

this moment I knew was coming, and it is one of the hardest things I've done in a long time, you two brought me such joy and pleasure. Your smiles and your friendly banter and sense of humor helped me to know you just a little bit, Mike your first video(solo) made a huge impact on me, I saw something in your face and your eyes that spoke volumes, their was a connection to us all, then as time went on, it was confirmed, your were and are a wonderful friend and human being. That is why you are missed so much, and also why the sorrow is so deep.......I believe your at peace now....Andrew.......God where do I begin?? Your tragic end was one of the most heartbreaking moments of my life,,,,I saw the video,,,,I have wept for you since then my friend, sunday nite I sobbed like a child, something I have not done since my Mother passed away. I know you are at rest now and I'm making my peace with that understanding. So Goodbye and till next time friends, from my heart to yours..................Love you guys..................

 

[samm4545]

Don't get the hostile posts

Invasion of privacy is giving addresses, phone numbers, etc....not an obit. of people who obviously made their lives very public on this site, especially those who had been on the site for awhile. Whether you saw them at Broke Straight Boys outings or ran into them at a bar, in many cases even back before Dustin passed, they themselves gave people their real names, Facebooks, Myspaces, YIMS, AIMS, etc....Obits are PUBLIC RECORD....that doesn't mean PUBLIC RECORD unless it's people from Broke Straight Boys..that's ludicrous, some people on this site need to really get over themselves. If a family didn't want people to know, they would have gone through the necessary steps to keep the obit. and information private.

 

[samm4545]

You always seem to hit the nail on the head slim.......

 

[tampa24]

My dear friends,

I have been away in Ohio for the last several weeks helping out a friend who is ailing. I can't believe that the first chance I get back on the forum I find out this dreadful news. I have missed all of you. Those who are close to me, even though it's been a while, know who you are. I want to thank Mark for starting this thread to let us know what happened. And I want to thank David and so many others in here for their kind remarks and remembrances of our dear departed MikeR. He will be greatly missed. Not only for his work here on the site as a porn star, but for his warm, kind and generous spirit...both onscreen and off.

He had many personal issues of his own that he dealt with bravely on a daily basis. All of which he described in a very forthcoming and honesty way on his thread that JW has graciously pulled up again. Even though Mike struggled with day to day living himself he did not hesitate to reach out to another member of our forum who was also dealing with personal issues. Mike actually took the time to befriend this person online and counsel and comfort him/her to get through a very rough patch. Because that was the kind of man Mike was.

I was thrilled when he once mentioned me (among several other notable forumites) in a shoutout from the futon. I once told him in the forum how much I loved his "goofy grin". He good naturedly laughed with me on that comment. lol I will always remember him as a beautiful person with a wondrous smile that could light up a room. The world has lost a wonderful soul. He will be greatly missed not only by his family but by many, many of us forumites and Broke Straight Boys members. My heart goes out to Eddie also because I know that they were especially close.

You have left us way too soon dear Mike. Rest in Peace our sweet prince.

 

[aladinsane73]

I took several hours to read through Mike Robbins "broke michael" thread, and took great care to read his posts and replies to the members, and I was in SHOCK and great pain by what I read, he freely admitted to having a mental illness called bipolar disorder w/violent tendencies, and if that wasn't horrible enough he also drank hard liquor like it was water, as well as quite a few beers throughout the week, and he also refused to take his meds for the bipolar, a condition he admitted was a mental illness. he chose to SELF MEDICATE ........... YOU CANNOT MIX BOOZE and manic depression, it WILL END IN DISASTER... he was a walking TIME BOMB ready to go off, and in one way or another 6-7 months after he was terminated from D&E Productions he was dead!!!! My turn for truth, my mother suffered all her life with bipolar disorder, and our family suffered as well, I remember many nights as a youg boy getting up to go to the bathroom and finding my mother sitting in a dark room staring at a candle with tears running down her face, she kept asking why no one loved her, I would sit wth her all nite with my arms around her crying and telling her that I did love her very much, but she acted like she could not believe it. She tried to kill herself 4 times, within a 4-5 yr period. So I am a person who can't stand to see human suffering, it kills me inside, I have to do something, anything, even if it's wrong, I have to try somehow, that's why I became a nurse and as a nurse I saw with growing outrage mikes ever downward spiral in his posts. A young man with a severe mental illness not taking his meds and getting drunk on the hard stuff every weekend and smokeing dope twice a day, is it any wonder we find ourselves here in this state of grief , sorrow, regret, and emotional pain today? MY GOD are we so clueless that we cannot see the cries for help, and before anyone even thinks about throwing up all the happy moments and the crazy times with tons of laughter, REMEMBER it's called BIPOLAR DISORDER for a damn good reason, here was a man that was unstable, unmedicated, drunk most of the time, and buzzed as well, and that's not enough, he was fighting the DEMON of manic depression every damn minute of his life... the road signs were everywhere .. ALSO no one has the right to decide to withhold the cause of death other than the family, mike did not hide his life under a rock, it's all there in the posts and his videos, When mike lost his job, there went all his hopes and dreams, and for a person that is manic depressive, that kind of bad news is a thousand times worse for them than the rest of us, and anyone should know that if they took the time to look into this condition. because you do not bring this kind of bad news (job loss) to this kind of person, you must watch them closely, because they will act out in a destructive manner, against others or more sadly themselves, by neglecting their health to such a degree that there is no turning back.... to those of you that truly tried to help mike this is not for you, and you know in your heart if that's true or not..and nothing I say will ever change that...TO THE PRODUCTION COMPANY--- you got your videos, and they will continue to reap a healthy reward for you for years to come, but not so for MIKE R. I have tried to see it another way, to look again at mikes videos with a different eye, to try to enjoy what he was bringing to us, but then I remember that here is a man that is suffering from a mental condition and not on his meds, so his decisions are unsure at best.. Was he in the right frame of mind when he took this path with D&E Productions? A man suffering from a mental illness and not on his meds or following his drs orders, is it any wonder we find ourselves here in this miserable state... I keep saying to myself there should been something we could have done to help mike, but what?? maybe kidnapping him and forceing him into a locked down clinic out in the boonies somewhere, then I'm brought back to reality, "to little to late"....and the sorrow of this great loss remains,,So it's up to us to live a better life than before and try to be more sensitive to others around us, to hear them when there in pain or struggling terribly with a percieved no win situation, and then maybe mike will smile on us, with a thumbs up, and a big thank you for helping someone who really needed us.......that's how we can honor his memory, reach out to someone who is in need like mike was...then maybe the sorrow and the loss will begin to heal and not come rushing back when we least expect it...........Spring is coming soon, the long cold winter is coming to an end, and mike is at peace, someday we will see his bugs bunny smile again, what a day that will be.............till next time friends