my last comment.....................I was a member last spring 2010 and my regret is that I didn't take the time or show enough interest in the forums to log on to any of the forum sites. If I had, I would have read Michaels thread. And with my work background I would have seen the warning signs before it was to late.... But I didn't, and now I'm haunted by "what ifs", this young man honestly admitted to us all his health history, and his daily abuse of substances...I know we like to only remember the good times. But we all would do his memory a disservice if that's all we chose to remember. We must for his sake and the sake of others who suffer as he did, learn from his tragic life. I in no way wish to defame or cast a bad light on Michaels memory, but we are all adults, and sometimes we need to look reality in the face, these young men are more than just porn models, they are sons, brothers, fathers, and friends to many in their life. It would do us all good to remember they are more than their videos...I know their was a huge part of Michaels personality in his videos, but even he admitted in his thread that most of the videos were just an act, a fantasy if you will. I know now that alot of what I was going through was guilt and regret. "If only" plays in my head alot, but that is not what he would want from any of us, so I am remembering Michael with good thoughts and good feelings, along with the understanding that we can only do so much, but even then I'm going to give it my all. I can thank Michael for that, and pray that I always will be there for a friend in need, to make a difference in their lives for the better...Please I beg of you all to forgive me if I in any way offended any of you with any of my comments on this member forum. Sometimes when we speak from a place of sorrow, we don't use wisdom, thank you all for being so patient with me, LIVE LONG AND PROSPER..till next time friends..........
