But actually facing up to the stark realities of doing internet-bound gay porn FOR REAL may have just hit him when arriving on the set before the actual filming began. He may have been worrying about being identified by some stranger as that "questionably straight guy on BSB doing gay-for-pay sex". He may have been having self-doubts all along the way but, once on the plane, he was past the "point-of-no-return" now feeling even more compelled to go through with the filming afterall because of the money BSB had already spent on getting him to the site.
While none of us have exclusive rights to the thoughts that were going through his mind at the time, I find it much more likely to be a case of second thoughts advancing to "cold feet" angrily resenting he agreed to do this just for money vs. a deliberate "Academy Award level acting job" gone awry.
We may never know the real answer, but at least this "cold feet" explaination seems to match up more closely with Mark's experience with Spencer behind the scenes before and after the shoot.
Again, hands down, my complete admiration goes out to Jason for dealing so skillfully with this most unhappy (except for his erect penis) camper and then taking Spencer's hot load to Jason's mouth and nose. Jason is not only beautiful, has the best of attitudes possible, and is accomplished sexually, he is a "class act" BSB is lucky to have as a regular model. I hope to be seeing much more of sweet Jason in the future but with more compliant partners! PLEASE!!!
Sincerely appreciating Jason's patience through it all,
Stimpy