Wow
Zeno Kostas!
I would like to just wrap you up in a big hug right now. I do feel like you've let all of us know you much better. So much of what you said resonates with me. First off though please let me offer my condolences on the loss of your family member. I can only imagine how tough your childhood got after that passing of your relative.
I really admire the maturity with which you view the world. I also really respect that you went back to high school classes rather than opting for a GED or online alternative. Now you can call yourself a high school graduate with no hesitation or asterisks that you need to explain. And if college is something you want at some point in your future...even ten years from now...you don't have to shy away from that for lack of a diploma.
Also, while I don't wear my faith on my sleeve, I too am a person of strong faith. I can very much relate to wanting to see the good in people and the rest of the world while trying to choose love over fear. I know you have already told your girlfriend about the video work and that you are still working through it. Of course I send you my best wishes to you in resolving that issue. One thing I have found very helpful on my spiritual path is to invite the Lord and Holy Spirit into tough conversations like that beforehand. Ask Them to help guide you through with the right words to say. Let Them give you the words so you don't feel like it's all on you.
If you are inviting Them to join both of you, I think you'll find that you'll have much more confidence and less fear. Whenever we can be present and more serene, even in stressful moments, our better angels will naturally carry us through and allow us to present ourselves in the best light.
Many hugs
Zeno Kostas! And thank you again for the interview.
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Hi,
Zeno Kostas!!!
I'm with Tampa. on this one. I think you will find that the
Broke Straight Boys group is not only very diverse, but also quite supportive, too. And the biggest thing I hope you get from this experience is not simply the money to pay off your debts (which is important!): but also, the opportunity to meet some genuinely kind and caring and supportive people, who will (very respectfully) care about you, and BE your friends.
A couple of things I would mention to you,
Zeno Kostas. First, I have a couple of good TOTALLY STRAIGHT friends who did JUST what you're doing at
Broke Straight Boys, to make money and solve problems with debt, and get through college. (One of them actually APOLOGIZED to me for NOT being gay. . . when I got to know him. It is a weird thing, but, on most American sites, gay guys like to think the models are STRAIGHT - even if they are gay; and on most European sites, gay guys like to think the models are GAY - even if they're straight ;-)
Anyway,
Zeno Kostas, what you should know is that these straight friends of mine, who appeared in male-male erotic video, MADE the money they needed to make to pay off their debts and go to school; MARRIED their girlfriends; and now are HAPPILY married, with children. (And mostly, with successful careers.) I know that, at the present time, appearing in erotic films is an unconventional career strategy, BUT - it can work out OK.
Second, like Tampa, I really appreciate your faith, which I also share. While I have many friends who are atheists or agnostics - my boyfriend, for example, is a convinced atheist! - I'm a Christian, and not ashamed to say so, and I think having this bedrock of faith as a foundation in your life, will be a great help to you, as time goes on. And, you might be surprised (???) ~ but amongst your gay viewers (and ultimately, fans): there are more of us who share your faith, than you might imagine, and will support you, in it. (Though TAMPA is going to be the BEST of ALL of them, I have to say ~ because Tampa is a SAINT.)
Third - where I grew up and went to school, there were lots of GREEK-Canadians. . . and I have always truly been grateful for their presence in my life! (A Greek-Canadian girl who went to university with me, just happens to live around the block from me, now: and we had SUCH FUN together, in school!!!) Yes, there are drawbacks to growing up in ANY sort of ethnic background (my Mother was Scottish, and I will tell you all about THAT, sometime!): but, for sure, all the Greek families I have known have been VERY STRONG on faith, family, and community - and taking care of one another. Those are very GOOD things,
Zeno Kostas, and inasmuch as those things might be part of your experience: rejoice in them, and carry them ON!!!
Zeno Kostas, I know that MikeYank will be VERY pleased to have a genuine, certifiable, STRAIGHT guy, on the site - because he loves that!!! (I don't care so much - - - I just like guys who are cute and nice, no matter what their inclinations ;-) But,
since you ARE a straight guy, I want to say: THANKS for sharing some time, and some personal moments, with us. (It helps more of us lonely gay guys, than you can ever know!) And ~
all the best with your life and love, and with your beautiful girlfriend!!!
I wish you all the best,
~ "A" XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
P.S. We are all going to be loving you. And your Christian friends are going to be praying for you, too,
Zeno Kostas.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PO17DIeI7Ec