Tyler!
I'm so glad to see you back on the forum. I hope the process was not too painful with everyone finding out. I'm sure it wasn't easy. I also know that you are a strong, confident person whose self worth and self esteem are not wrapped up in what others may or may not think about your foray into gay for pay porn. As you say, you find out who your real friends are. Those who ultimately had only conditional love for you or offered you friendship based on only certain conditions and expectations, are people you are better off without anyway. It gives you a chance to clear out all the debris and weeds so that you're left with only the best quality people.
Having said that, you may find that people you have written off may become enlightened later on and regret their words and/or actions towards you. Of course it's up to them to make amends to you. Not for you to try to appease them or win them back over.
As Dan says earlier, you are loved in here just as much for the person you are on the inside as you are for the person on the outside.
Big hugs!! xo
it wasn't easy i kinda just left my home town and went to denver to hang out with friends to get over it. its kinda been difficult finding out who my real friends are. but that process is over and I'm still standing here with my best friends calling me all the time asking when will i be back.
my answer is always, when i can over this, ill be back. everyone worries but I'm fine. I'm a big boy