My Philosophy on life.

[peterh6308]

Sorry friends i never met this to be a sad story, just a story about the "bucket list". xoxoxo Peter

 

[Ms. Kianna]

Sorry friends i never met this to be a sad story, just a story about the "bucket list". xoxoxo Peter

Sad can also be a synonym for heart warming.

 

[lovelumps]

Peter,

It is a wonderful story. Sad, but a wonderful love story. I'm so glad you got to do those bucket list things together.

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about what I would consider my bucket list. It's causing me no small amount of anxiety! I've got a lot to do, and I'm questioning the direction I've been going professionally and personally. It's exhausting! Lol.

 

[Denny Bear]

I can not thank both Blake for starting this post and Peter for adding such a moving addition. I have never before read such a moving thread as this has been and I find myself wet with tears. In the last few years I have lost all but one member of my immediate family and each of them suddenly and unexpected. I must now be an authority on understanding how fast we can loose a loved one. The part of this that really makes me think is while I have not been given any official word on what to expect next I have been diagnosed with Congestive Heart Failure, COPD, and Diabetes so I have not been making any long term plans. But thanks to Blake’s message I can sincerely see myself sitting down with a bucket list.

 

[peterh6308]

I can not thank both Blake for starting this post and Peter for adding such a moving addition. I have never before read such a moving thread as this has been and I find myself wet with tears. In the last few years I have lost all but one member of my immediate family and each of them suddenly and unexpected. I must now be an authority on understanding how fast we can loose a loved one. The part of this that really makes me think is while I have not been given any official word on what to expect next I have been diagnosed with Congestive Heart Failure, COPD, and Diabetes so I have not been making any long term plans. But thanks to Blake’s message I can sincerely see myself sitting down with a bucket list.

Denny I'm so sorry to here about your health issues. These are two very serious ailments to battle. William died from complications with Diabetes so please take this one as serious as the COPD. My prayers are with you my friend and sending xoxo to Iowa. Peter

 

[tampa24]

Denny I'm so sorry to here about your health issues. These are two very serious ailments to battle. William died from complications with Diabetes so please take this one as serious as the COPD. My prayers are with you my friend and sending xoxo to Iowa. Peter

Same here Denny. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Thank you Peter for sharing your story. I'm so sorry for your loss. Yet I'm also joyful that you were both able to make his last months some of his best.

 

[tampa24]

Well im glad you saw the point of the post... I know im only 22.. But you guys can seriously look at the BTS and see my vacations practically documented! i have gotten to go to NYC, Washington DC, and See a solar eclipse with my eyes!

DID I MENTION! on my way to NYC i was traveling early in the morning, and as i was looking out the window of the plane at 36,000 ft up in the air.... I see the most amazing natural phenomenon to take place at that altitude!

I SAW a SHOOTING STAR! a meteorite had entered the earths atmosphere close enough that i could actually see the girth of the tail as it shoot towards the ground before dissipating leaving behind a faint but still noticeable plasma trail. started where i was looking up and ended with me looking right at it at almost eye level... it was the most beautiful thing i had ever seen.

I got to go to denver for a week just to hangout and have a good time, it was fantastic! i got to see majority of the colorado mountains! i got to see the Planetary nebula in Orion's sword!

so many things that i havent got to do my whole life i have done in the past 6 months.

So its possible, you just gotta find your means of doing it.

Dear Blake,

Thank you for starting this thread. I will have to give much more thought to my bucket list. One of the things already on it is to see London for the first time. Which I hope to do fairly soon this year.

I want to also tell you how moved I am by your story of your friend Daniel. The fact that you are there for him through thick and thin. And that just being around you helps lift his spirits. We should all strive not just to have friends like you...but to be friends like you. Thank you for all you do for Daniel. I say this because he is a brother to all of us in the human family. Thank you for helping and looking after our brother. You don't just talk the talk but you walk the walk. You do what you can to treat our brother and sisters well.

Through this story and several others... Through your descriptions of the joys of discovering and witnessing all the spectacular sights of the natural world... You allow myself and so many others to be able look past the attractiveness of your outer shell and see some of the the sheer beauty of your soul. Thank you for that honor Blake.

 

[mikeyank]

This really hits home for me. 3 yrs ago when my partner died we did a bucket list 4 months prior to his death not knowing it would be some of the last things he did. We were/I am very simple kind of people so this list consisted of regular everyday kind of wants. He died in January so the Sept before we were sitting around and were talking about our life together and all we had gone through (ups-downs) after 18yrs together that we still loved and more importantly liked each other. So i didn't just lose my lover, but I lost my best friend. Well anyway! This particular Saturday I started to write down what he wanted to do b4 he died (us not knowing that Jan he would be gone) and #1 he wanted to go to a all you can eat chinese buffet. What makes this so funny is he hated chinese food the next friday we went. He liked the rice and udon noodles and blamed me for not ever making him eat this b4 #2 He wanted to go to his Parents cabin up in the woods and fish. 3 weeks after we went up there with his Brother and his wife for a 3 day weekend. William was getting pretty frail by then, but he always" manned up " when it came to fishing, camping or hunting, so there he was standing in the river fly fishing and as I watched him and his brother together a feeling came over me that this might be his last time ever fishing again. I started to well up in tears, not sad ones but happy ones because he was so in his element. #3 He wanted to have a BBQ with all friends and family together. It took until Oct to get almost everyone together so this was quite the challenge request. He didn't last that long that day, but we had a great time anyway. As I look back almost 4 yrs later to when we wrote and did these things together, it makes so happy that these simple things in life fishing, eating chinese buffet and bbq with family and friends is also my bucket list and I live it everyday, week, month and year. I guess i'm realizing that we weren't really simple people just not complicated individuals and thats what we loved/liked about each other and thats what I love/like about myself. Good day in Seattle today, I'm feeling happy with great memories.

Dear Peter,

I certainly read this post when you originally posted it, but could not think of the "right thing" to say at that time. But now a year and three months later, as I have gotten to know you so well, and learned so much more about you and William, I just wanted to comment on what a beautiful post you made, and on what a beautiful relationship you had with your best buddy. Reading it again made me both sad for what you've lost and happy for what you had. I'm sure I speak for all my fellow forumites that your relationship with your buddy William is an inspiration to all of us.

You are a beautiful person Peter, and I thank God for having you in my life as a friend.

 

[peterh6308]

Dear Peter,

I certainly read this post when you originally posted it, but could not think of the "right thing" to say at that time. But now a year and three months later, as I have gotten to know you so well, and learned so much more about you and William, I just wanted to comment on what a beautiful post you made, and on what a beautiful relationship you had with your best buddy. Reading it again made me both sad for what you've lost and happy for what you had. I'm sure I speak for all my fellow forumites that your relationship with your buddy William is an inspiration to all of us.

You are a beautiful person Peter, and I thank God for having you in my life as a friend.

Thank you my dear friend!!! You have also been a ray of sunshine into my life as well. I think inspiration is probably a over statement, but thank you. I was just so fortunate to have found my true life companion in William and I think thats what makes it hard sometimes even now. But time does heal and no one can take my memories of what we had together. Thanks again Mikey xoxoxo

 

[mikeyank]

Thank you my dear friend!!! You have also been a ray of sunshine into my life as well. I think inspiration is probably a over statement, but thank you. I was just so fortunate to have found my true life companion in William and I think thats what makes it hard sometimes even now. But time does heal and no one can take my memories of what we had together. Thanks again Mikey xoxoxo

You know that I don't like to get sappy, or dare I say "girly" on this forum Peter, but I do mean every word I said. You are indeed a very special person.

Now, let's end this mutual admiration society right here Peter, for if you say anything else nice about me, I'm going to have to challenge you again over the territorial rights to "Tanky", (the Yankee?)

 

[peterh6308]

You know that I don't like to get sappy, or dare I say "girly" on this forum Peter, but I do mean every word I said. You are indeed a very special person.

Now, let's end this mutual admiration society right here Peter, for if you say anything else nice about me, I'm going to have to challenge you again over the territorial rights to "Tanky", (the Yankee?)

Well you can have Tanky because you are so special to me Drew!!!

 

[Beth]

Well you can have Tanky because you are so special to me Drew!!!

Fuck, Mark, can you schedule these two in for a scene?! I think we'd all pay extra for that one, or two, or three.....

 

[peterh6308]

Fuck, Mark, can you schedule these two in for a scene?! I think we'd all pay extra for that one, or two, or three.....

He couldn't handle this power bottom, I'd kill him!!!

 

[mikeyank]

Well you can have Tanky because you are so special to me Drew!!!

Fuck, Mark, can you schedule these two in for a scene?! I think we'd all pay extra for that one, or two, or three.....

He couldn't handle this power bottom, I'd kill him!!!

We have the scene all worked out now Beth. I'll be the fluffer for Peter's cute young top boy, and when I get the kid all primed and ready, he will be take on the power bottom.

I'm predicting a solid FIVE rating for this blockbuster scene!

 

[tampa24]

Well im glad you saw the point of the post... I know im only 22.. But you guys can seriously look at the BTS and see my vacations practically documented! i have gotten to go to NYC, Washington DC, and See a solar eclipse with my eyes!

DID I MENTION! on my way to NYC i was traveling early in the morning, and as i was looking out the window of the plane at 36,000 ft up in the air.... I see the most amazing natural phenomenon to take place at that altitude!

I SAW a SHOOTING STAR! a meteorite had entered the earths atmosphere close enough that i could actually see the girth of the tail as it shoot towards the ground before dissipating leaving behind a faint but still noticeable plasma trail. started where i was looking up and ended with me looking right at it at almost eye level... it was the most beautiful thing i had ever seen.

I got to go to denver for a week just to hangout and have a good time, it was fantastic! i got to see majority of the colorado mountains! i got to see the Planetary nebula in Orion's sword!

so many things that i havent got to do my whole life i have done in the past 6 months.

So its possible, you just gotta find your means of doing it.

Dear Blake,

I have always remembered this story you shared with us of seeing the shooting start from your window seat on the airplane at 30,000 feet. I've even re-shared your story on another thread a while back.

This particular thread obviously runs the gamut of the agony and the ecstasies of life. From the some of the highest highs to the lowest lows. And the perseverance of the human spirit to navigate through both. But this particular story always brings a smile to my face.

 

[BlakeBennet]

The way i see it.. you gotta live life for now, not tomorrow.. heres my philosophy and why i can genuinely say that i live my life to the fullest (the way i want). Because i think this way, not depressingly, but i live.

You have just been diagnosed with a terminal sickness which will take its toll in 3 months..

What will you do in those three months that you have regretted not doing in the past? Make a list!!!!! im serious! right now i want everyone to post their bucket list of what they would do for the next three months of their life.

once you have this list.... GO FUCKING DO THEM!

Yeah you dont have 3 months to live (if you do, dont say anything being snarky, you should take this message very seriously)

So great, you arnt dying.. But.. you could in the next few min... People die in car crashes all the time and never get a second chance to say, "Damn, i should do something really fast that i have always wanted to." No chance, they just die. thats it.. Lights out! Gone from this world only to bring pain and suffering to those around you that you loved.

But what about all those things that you regret not doing.. as far as im concerned, im not fucking superman, i know every time i breath/eat i have a potential to choke, drive my car, i could crash, go on a plane and suffocate from a pressure valve malfunction, sit at home watching tv/on the computer and have a heart attack..

Life is so fragile..

But why am i on your asses about this..

for those of you who have been keeping up with my ridiculous rants, you should know who Daniel is by now. He is my best friend, known him for quite a while.

he has Been told that he is HIV positive at age 22 turning 23 this august, lost his job, and cant find a new one, went through 5 interview at the omni hotel before they told him no, just today..

"This entire year has been the worst of my life, im so depressed and now i dont even want to get out of bed." Daniel S. 1:33pm aug. 3rd 2012. thats his real text to me after omni

But this kid still manages to come to my house, look at me and tell me that i help him forget by keeping him busy playing games and being their when he needs a shoulder.

I made him make a list of things he hasnt gotten to do... it was too late.

Unfortunately.. his one and only goal was to be a pilot fighting for the Air Force for his country.
He was in training and everything, one year away from his pilot license.

Because he WAITED for life to be convenient for him.. (financially, school, relationship) he waited for all these things first)

He lost his dream. 22, and cant be in the military. (physically unfit to perform)

Not only that, but his girl left him, hes alone, impossible to get a date cuz he is obligated to tell people about it..

So please, i want to see your list..

hypothetically If you have 3 months to live.. What would you do?

If you dont like this message, Dont respond. just go about your day like you just read nothing.
(Im fully aware his life isnt over, i know very well his situation, but it killed his dream he had for 15 years)
(this thread is not about HIV, if you want to talk about it, open another thread please, im not a part of it, its too much)

fun to see yourself 10 years ago.

 

[BlakeBennet]

Daw!!! Thanks mister! I do remember that memory. Think about it quite often actually. ������ thank you for blessing me with it once more!������

 

[tampa24]

My pleasure Blake!!

 

[BlakeBennet]

My pleasure Blake!!

Oooof, if I were to sum up my philosophy on life now? I still agree with a lot of the points I made. But now a days, see less reason to point out the points, and just practice what I preach. If that made sense. I’ve lost a lot of loved ones very close to me these last 9 years. Some of them very recent. I’ve never grasped more tightly to the idea of living each day as your last as I do today.

 

[tampa24]

Oooof, if I were to sum up my philosophy on life now? I still agree with a lot of the points I made. But now a days, see less reason to point out the points, and just practice what I preach. If that made sense. I’ve lost a lot of loved ones very close to me these last 9 years. Some of them very recent. I’ve never grasped more tightly to the idea of living each day as your last as I do today.

I'm so sorry for your losses Blake. We knew of the friend you lost to a drunk driver a few years ago now. I'm sorry to hear you've added to the list of lost friends. It does give you a perspective of enjoying each day to the fullest and trying to stay present for all your loved ones around you.