The train now standing

[Reubenjames]

Before my BF went to Ireland he had 2 weeks leave and i managed to get a few days off as well in the last week, we where together as much as possible, and even went to stay in a b&b for a night so we could sleep together. ( i was so glad we did.)
I took him to the train station which was about an hour from us by car, we would leave early so as to be able to find somewhere to make love for the last time to tide us both over till he came back.
His train came in and he put his kit on and then made to sit down, and then laughing at me came and stood at the closed door and we talked through the open window, he told me the 6 months of his posting would go by quickly, and then he would be back.
I told him when he came back we could start to look for a place of our own, which would save on hotel and b&b's and we could make all the noise we liked.
The guard blew his whistle and my BF took off his ring kissed it and gave it to me and said next time i put this back on i will never take it off.
I said i love you to him and he said i love you and will miss you for the 6 months.
I stood on the platform and watched the train go out of view, then had to drive home.
I never saw him again. He was killed a month latter.
He was 21 cute and the light of my life.
RJ

 

[denver0102]

OMG this just brings tears to my eyes.

 

[Jayman01]

Before my BF went to Ireland he had 2 weeks leave and i managed to get a few days off as well in the last week, we where together as much as possible, and even went to stay in a b&b for a night so we could sleep together. ( i was so glad we did.)
I took him to the train station which was about an hour from us by car, we would leave early so as to be able to find somewhere to make love for the last time to tide us both over till he came back.
His train came in and he put his kit on and then made to sit down, and then laughing at me came and stood at the closed door and we talked through the open window, he told me the 6 months of his posting would go by quickly, and then he would be back.
I told him when he came back we could start to look for a place of our own, which would save on hotel and b&b's and we could make all the noise we liked.
The guard blew his whistle and my BF took off his ring kissed it and gave it to me and said next time i put this back on i will never take it off.
I said i love you to him and he said i love you and will miss you for the 6 months.
I stood on the platform and watched the train go out of view, then had to drive home.
I never saw him again. He was killed a month latter.
He was 21 cute and the light of my life.
RJ

That was a wonderful heart felt story. My prayers go out to you for your loss. It is good that you were able to spend those last few moments of precious leave time together. Bless your hearts... you must remember that nobody ever truly dies as our souls are eternal. He is always with you and he always will be with you. You have only lost his physical manifestation. His memories live in your heart and in your memories. Each time you share your story we all get to know him better through you and your eyes. Please, his death was not the end. It was and is a new beginning. He knows how much you loved him and always will. I know that you know in your heart of hearts that he would not want you to be alone the rest of your physical life wondering what could have or would have been. Your time is now and you are given a chance to live life and share the love that the two of you shared with your friends and with the world. Please, remember he will forever love you...

Sometimes part of loving some one is letting them go. I know this may be awkward for you to understand. However; I have done numerous psychic readings for people and channeled information as a medium. I am not channeling him now nor have I tried to. My own spiritual guides are telling me that you are choosing to hold yourself back. They are telling me that he is rooting for you on the other side to meet somebody new. He wants others to know the loving gift you are to the world and that you were to him... It is OK to mourn your loss and move on. You still have many years of life in this physical world to grow and share your love with others.

Be at peace.

Nameste.

 

[Reubenjames]

I have kept these details of my life locked in my heart for over 30 years. Finding this site with the forum has been like a new beginning for me.
There was only my uncle who knew the whole story, and he died 7 years ago.
So i say to you all thank you for taking the time to read and for the kind words you send me back.
I have cried myself to sleep so many nights, so much pain.
But life dose go on. And you never know one of these days my second mr right will walk through the door.
Thank you again.
RJ

 

[Reubenjames]

That was a wonderful heart felt story. My prayers go out to you for your loss. It is good that you were able to spend those last few moments of precious leave time together. Bless your hearts... you must remember that nobody ever truly dies as our souls are eternal. He is always with you and he always will be with you. You have only lost his physical manifestation. His memories live in your heart and in your memories. Each time you share your story we all get to know him better through you and your eyes. Please, his death was not the end. It was and is a new beginning. He knows how much you loved him and always will. I know that you know in your heart of hearts that he would not want you to be alone the rest of your physical life wondering what could have or would have been. Your time is now and you are given a chance to live life and share the love that the two of you shared with your friends and with the world. Please, remember he will forever love you...

Sometimes part of loving some one is letting them go. I know this may be awkward for you to understand. However; I have done numerous psychic readings for people and channeled information as a medium. I am not channeling him now nor have I tried to. My own spiritual guides are telling me that you are choosing to hold yourself back. They are telling me that he is rooting for you on the other side to meet somebody new. He wants others to know the loving gift you are to the world and that you were to him... It is OK to mourn your loss and move on. You still have many years of life in this physical world to grow and share your love with others.

Be at peace.

Nameste.

Thank you.
RJ

 

[mikeyank]

.........he is rooting for you on the other side to meet somebody new. He wants others to know the loving gift you are to the world and that you were to him... It is OK to mourn your loss and move on. You still have many years of life in this physical world to grow and share your love with others.

I want you to know RJ that I too have a tear in my eye, reading more details of your story again. But Jayman's words above are very true. Think if things had been reversed, and you were the one that passed, would you want him to be alone, or would you want him to find happiness here on earth? I really hope that you move on with life, never forget him, but do what he would want you to do. Peace.

Your friend,
Mike